Normal? Not 'Arf!!

I live in the North West. I am a mum who struggles. I try to be the mum I see on the telly or facebook. But it just doesn't work. I am good at stuff but lack motivation to have a hobby or make phone calls to friends or do the housework or get up before 11am. 12pm. Yes. I have a daughter who's 8 and I go to bed in the mornings. I eat crap!! There's the books where authors state that they're being honest cos they state that didn't give their children home made food for three days in a row. Then there's me. The extreme! I have friends and people who love me. Yet am scared of the phone so I resort to facebook and texting.

Love the small one. She's great. I sit with her and hug her. It's been said that 'All you need is love'. I hope this is true in our case. Went to Haven last Easter hols and feel a little lighter knowing she and her friend enjoyed it so much they didn't want to leave. It was a very cheap (cold) holiday but enjoyable. We had fun. Knowing now that life is very 'quiet' though, brings endless feelings of guilt. I am there for her. My husband (her step-dad) is. But when it comes to swimming and bike-reading - none of which she has mastered yet - and other similar hobbies and so-forth, I feel I/we have failed. Very little work and struggle to pay for food. No we don't waste money or smoke/rarely drink, and we only go for free days out, that's if we go out at all.

I want to have a happier blog next time. I hope I do. I hope, as I hope and pray every day, that I will have some lovely news to report - whatever that news is. I don't want to be negative. I want to tell the world about a happy event!

Thanks for listening!